Its been a minute but what a minute 30 seconds its been since I last wrote a note on MY page lol lol lol lol sorry buti had to add that bit in as I need to remind those that tell me I am too personal up in here that it is MY page. No disrespect xxx
Since I last wrote its been time filled with highs and lows hugs and blows and moments of madness!!! So I am exhausted as I write this.
Things that should be simple and uncomplicated have become a circus filled with egos clowns and frowns but damn! Some people are pure genius at making things extra complicated. Simple requests are frowned upon and when you ask to be left alone it aint respected....leaving me with a one word question....WHY?!
I am the kinda of person once I finally make my mind and leave a situation I have no desire to turn back. I love my own company so the desire to go back into situations that I have no need to be in is not my style. I am a tolerant person but even I have a threshold and my limit for bullshit and time wasting is 0.0. But people still keep trying to test and push the boundaries and piss me off even more! If I said no in the first instance and you still keep trying to change me and I turn bitch on ya ass then you should realise that its not me its you!!!
Also this week I learnt about those that hold onto bitterness that when you are trying to do the right thing they still want to throw obstacles in your direction! They claim to have grown and their priority is only one thing but they use that one thing to manipulate and execute their anger at ya!!! Give someone even the smallest opening to offload and they will come at you like a tornado!!! Dayamn!!!
Then there's been those who have not liked my answer and basically gone silent on me even when given a valid and substantial reason. What baffles me is men and women complain when they get involved with those with bagage and always rant and rave that these people should sort their issues out before they get involved with another person. Even I am a strong believer that if you are miserable and don't like you sort your shit out before going out there and making someone else miserable and they end up not liking you either! So when I say no I am not looking to get involved in anyway shape or form and NO I am not into booty calls nor am I looking for a fuck buddy cos I value myself worth more than platinum, and that I am busy focusing on me! Respect me my honesty and the fact that I aint playing with ya!
So here's the deal I am realising I am damned if I do and I am damned if I don't!
I know we all have our issues. We all have our good points our bad points and we all have our thresholds but what happened to respect.
Why is that if someone looks good they wear nice clothes and make the effort to take care of themselves that people think that they instantly want to be jumped on and assume that all that they need is a good fuck with you?!! I mean what makes you think your that good. What happened to getting to know someone?to finding out whether you like them what happened to respect? So many angry folk out there hating themselves and the rest of the world cos they took their fast self and jumped into bed with someone they realised after the fact was that they were infact sleeping with the enemy!!!
No disrespect but call me crazy but I know what I want! And I am not detering from this path.I refuse to be disillusioned or caught up in the hype.I am not a follower nor do I profess to be a leader however what I am is someone that gets dowm low heag shoulders knees and toes to the beat of my own drum. I have not been good to me and in turn its not been a pretty journey and thus its come to my attention that I need to take affirmative action and resolve the issues that lay in me before I attempt to get myself involved with another. I don't see the issue of being happy single and not being sexually frustrated! I don't put much emphasis on sex and therefore I am in no rush to make stupid decisions and I have the patience to wait. Yes! I am waiting to meet or find the best man for me.
Yes I said it and what?!!
See my opinion today is that no one values each other any more. We are all looking for the quick fix abit on the side a little distraction and these folk cannot face up to their issues deal with their home so look elsewhere still keeping the otha and then those that offer themselves as the side dish willingly will always be discontent and starting hating. So my point is becareful what situation you get yourself into and don't blame others for the choices you make. We can't chose our family but we can chose our friends and lovers.
Don't hate or disrespect me cos I don't share your wants and if you can't be my friend first then you cannot be my lover....
Bless
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