Its been a minute since I wrote n over the last month having started a new routine of waking up at 3am to eat n start the days fast I have found myself laying in bed with a head full of observations n thoughts.
A few weeks ago I posted n item that was personal to me but I decided to put it out there wit no expectations.however I had a few comments n one that stood out to me was one where I was told I shouldn't use fb as a platform to air out my deep feelings as people would judge me without knowing me....mmmmm this got me thinking! Don't we judge anyway? Don't we all use fb in more ways dan one? N who has the right to tell another what to put on a page or not when they are not the account holder? A few left comments as they related to what I had written a few asked me what it was about...
If people can use fb to slag each other off, publicly profess their needs for man woman alcohol n whatever else they desire, then it is my decision n choice to publicly profess my emotions about my children. I aint ashamed. Shit happens and only da divine knows the method to the madness.
Kanye west wrote in his track jesus walks *if I talk about god my records won't get played* *we can rap about anything except for jesus*...profound lyrics but true. Wen I met him I remember walking away thinking what a jerk but over the years i kept an open mind n listened intently to his words n realised that what I had perceived as arrogance was actually a man dat laughed at the industry the superficial shit n played the game n taught me a huge lesson. He spoke about the issues we brush unda the carpet n doesn't pretend. N as much as his arrogance got up my nostril wen we met I have to give the dude respect! He don't care if you love or hate him.
Only very few of us exist where we see shit for what it truly is. People are their own worst enemies. We love to put on a show, go on like we r above the rest and untouchable n we forget that we all have to take a dump n our shit can stink. Even the prettiest girl or the cutest guy gets bowel issues!!! Sorry to be graphic but its the truth. Let's keep it real n not get it twisted. So before we go judging people let's take a long look at ourselves. If you find what I speak about offensive or too emotional, frankly my dear, I just don't give a fuck. I wasn't born with you n you sure as hell aint gonna be holding my hand n answering for me at my 1*2*1 wit god!
The great thing about life is we have a choice! If you don't like the way I speak my ming the you can delete me...its called remove friend I on the other hand will speak from my heart as there's more to be said than how hungover I am from a drink binge or who shagged who...its not what I am about. And the last time I checked I was no sheep.
My view is that we don't like to keep it real. I stopped going to clubs along time ago cos the people in these joints to me were pretending to be what they weren't.they wanted to give off the mtv lifestyle which clearly didn't reflect the reality when you visited their crib or opened their fridge. Our priorities are messed up!!! U can buy champagne at the bar but you can't afford milk at tesco . You buy dolce n gabbana to look prim but can't even buy primark to cloth your child?? Yes makes sense!!! But each to their own.
We need to wake up n stop looking to criticise comment or judge others. We need to start looking at ourselves n our shit. I know people that talk a good talk, spend equal hours at the gym salon to look good n places of worship to make sure they felt good but they are the most ugliest souls I have ever met. Their insecurities make them devious manipulative n down right vile but you know what its for god to judge them. Just cos you give food to the poor n then take food from your friend don't make you pretty.
I do what pleases me n if it don't please you den hey life goes on. I will openely speak about the things that make me happy sad angry and horny. I will rejoice in my humanness n excel in my imperfections because I have a purpose n a lust for life.I want to talk to scratch the surface rock the boat n openly talk about the shit we ALL go through because only by sharing n not judging can we resolve the issues we face today....
Only god can judge me...
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