today i feel a little defeated

today i feel defeated,

a lil mad, and a lil conceted

i feel as though i took a chance

but failed to perform the dance

the melody was love

but i could not get the steps

i tried to do the dance of love

but it came to me, that love is not meant for me

today i feel like being alone

i wanna rip my heart out and turn it to stone

today i feel like being in the dark

stripped down, laid bare and stark

i need to make sense

somehow try to make amends

i feel the divide within my whole

the ripping through my soul

if you only could see the impact you made on me

if you only knew how you made me be

if only you could see

just what i wanted you to see

but if's but's and maybe's could've would've and should'a's

dont always rewind the clock and take us to the point we could'a

done or said the right thing

what i want to say

or is it what you want to hear

why i should i say something in fear

you claim you want honesty,

but you can't see the reality

that i bring to the table

i dont come to rap a verse

so orchestrated and rehearsed

i speak the truth that comes to my heart

and lies within me

but which has now torn this apart

should i be sorry that i could not be

the kinda person you want me to be

today, i feel defeated

a lil mad and a lil conceted