Its been a testing time for me family drama professional drama and personal drama and just as you think the storms blown over it creeps up and makes you slide back on ya ass!!!
So my antidote to this madness is to laugh and laugh like a mad woman.
When I look back at my life I do feel a sense of sadness for the bullshit I have allowed or let myself to go through but I remain optimistic and positive that sense and clarity can be found in madness.
All my life I have taken on the issues that others have with themselves and let them off load their insecurities, bitterness and negativity on me. This started with my mother then I gave the baton to the father of my kids and allowed him sink me.having given these individuals the platform and opportunity to control my view of me has haunted me for sometime. You would say that the two people who had prominent places in my life basically loved to hate me.
As I have gotten older I am learning to slowly break away and find me again but don't get it twisted the shit is only half over!
But I am determined and adamant to persist and persevere and push on to find me. So if you see me laughing like a fool don't think I am missing my straight jacket or missed my ride to the nut house!
I am laughing cos I refuse to cry and let these invalids get the best of me cos they took enough and now its my turn x
Remember always only small minded people try to hold others down and never try to conquer hate with hate - just kill with love ~ peace
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