all but i remain.....

as the waves of reality, wash slowly over me
sometimes with ferosity, sometimes with calm,
but still, all in slow motion

i stand alone, my body emerged in the salty water
asking for redemption, asking for cleansing
the past hangs over me like the shadow that follows me
but i find comfort in my pain
i find, peace in the tears that rain

my heart has closed, it just gets a little tighter each day
even though i breathe in easily, letting go is not quite the same

learn to forgive, is a lesson i find hard to learn
the words are there, the illustrations so pretty, so rare
but the absorption is absent, the depth of taking it in, so shallow

i am not ready, not yet quite there
i can't see past the hurt, not yet, in my far sight, its nowhere

my mind and my heart, tie my soul and spirit down,
when the shattering of the mirror leaves only fragments of glass everywhere
all but i remain
in a million little pieces trying to fit somewhere

i dont want to belong, i dont need to belong
i am alone, and i am comfortable there
let me be alone, let me be free alone with me

i enjoy my own exclusitivity, for i can only be me
i enjoy my own company,as with me, i can run free
for when the curtains comes down, the lights are turned off
the make up is wiped and the show is over
all but in me, i remain........