I HAVE YET BEEN UNABLE TO COMPREHEND, UNDERSTAND, DIGEST, COME TO TERMS OR ACCEPT THE ACTUAL REALITY OF THIS SITUATION, THIS LOSS, THIS ABSENCE, THIS TRAGEDY. WORDS HAVE SO FAILED ME AT THIS PRESENT TIME, THAT ALL I CAN ALL I AM ABLE TO DO IS STARE INTO NOTHING IN TOTAL SILENCE, AND HOPE THAT I CAN AWAKEN FROM THIS DREAM....ITS HAS BEEN ALL OVER THE INTERNET NEWS, EVEN ON YOUTUBE, EVERYDAY I LOG ONTO FACEBOOK, MY HOMEPAGE HAS MORE AND MORE PICTURES OF HIM THAN WHEN HE WAS ALIVE......HE IS MORE PRESENT TODAY THAN HE WAS LAST WEEK, WHEN EMAILS AND MSN WERE HOW WE KEPT IN CONTACT. WHEN I LOGGED ONTO MESSENGER LAST NIGHT, HIS NAME APPEARED ON MY LIST OF CONTACTS.....BUT I HAD TO COME TO TERMS THAT THE LITTLE RED FIGURE WOULD NEVER EVER AGAIN GO GREEN AND IT WOULD FOREVER READ OFF LINE........
MY HEART AND SOUL LIS HEAVY, MY SPIRIT BROKEN, BUT I KNOW THIS IS NOT WHAT HE WOULD HAVE ASKED FOR ULTIMATELY. HIS UNTIMELY DEATH AND DEPARTING FROM THIS WORLD, HAS YET TO COME AND AWAKEN ME TO THE REALITY THAT HE HAS FOREVER GONE.....
MY TRIPS TO NEW YORK WILL NEVER BE OR MEAN THE SAME. HE WAS THE HEART OF NEW YORK AND WHAT KEPT IT SO MUCH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE....THE PLACE I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE, AND MADE ME SMILE FROM MY HEART. AJILE FOR ME, WAS BIGGER THAN THE EMPIRE STATE AND MORE OF A FEATURE THAN THE STATUE OF LIBERTY.....AND NOW HE IS NO LONGER THERE....
I CANNOT YET DEAL WITH THIS, NOT YET, NOT TODAY.....
A MUTUAL FRIEND, A CLOSE FRIEND OF AJILE WROTE THIS YESTERDAY AND SENT IT TO ME, AND IT ENCOMPASSED EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM ELIQUENTLY AND FOR NOW, I HAVE DECIDED TO CUT AND PASTE IT, AND SHARE HIS EULOGY WITH THE WORLD.....
Ajile Turner, Aug 17th 1971 - Sept 18th 2009
Many people will remember the dates above, but it is the little "dash" in the middle of those dates that means everything. They say in life you only have two or three really good friends you know you can always count on. Well Ajile was that great friend for countless people. I don't know anyone who ever met Ajile that could disagree with that. He was there for soo many of us in our times of need, and also there to celebrate all our special moments in life as well. We all know Ajile for his physical size, 6 and a half feet tall, size 15 sneakers and lots of muscles, but his heart was the biggest and strongest muscle in his body. He could be physically intimidating on first glance, but he was really a big teddy bear.
Ajile was extremely smart, well educated, athletic, worldly, and the hardest working person you could find. That was a true testament to his mom's incredible job of raising him. We should all have been as blessed to have a mom like Ms Turner. Because of her, Ajile not only excelled in school through college, but also by doing all he could to break stereo-types, bust boundaries, and live life to the fullest. Not many people can say they've been on 6 continents, dozens of countries, hundreds of cities, made friends and touched many people along the way. He conducted business deals all over the world and still found time to surf, snowboard, play basketball, work-out, and even attempt to rollerblade once. We all know getting his blue-toothe headset off him, his phone out of his hand, or laptop to be shut-down for 2 minutes, was next to impossible! I'm sure at one point he probably tried to surf a wave in hawaii while on his phone conducting deals in Europe.
Ajile was a complex person with many sides to him. His interest in learning new things, trying new things, and large spectrum of activities he would do, made him gain friends in many different parts of the world and in many different circles. He had his friends and family in Ohio and Chicago, his friends in NY, friends in Hawaii, friends in the music industry, friends in college from Tennesse, friends on the west-coast, friends in Europe, friends in Australia, etc... and we all got to know, appreciate and love different aspects of Ajile. I personally enjoyed watching him try to sing U2 and Jimi Hendrix songs on our long road trips. I also loved that Ajile was proud of everything his friends and especially his family members have accomplished. He would be the first to brag about the achievements of others around him, and that is a special quality. He always put us first.
His time with us, although much shorter than it should be, was well spent. He truly lived every day to the fullest and tried to make others do the same. His philosophy was always "yes we can." If something needed to be done, Ajile would make it happen, without question. There will never be a day that goes by in which his presence among us is not missed....
we love you, we miss you, and thank you for everything you have done for us...
our friend, our confidant, our super-hero, our body-guard, our brother...
"The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at anytime" - Mark T
Rest In Peace
JS
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This is absolutely beautiful. JS said it All. And Ms M. you took the works right out of my mouth. Visiting NY will never be the same. My visits alwasy felt incomplete if I was not able to see Ajile. Aj and I also talked a lot via IM and I thought the same thing the other day, when I signed on my computer and thought, I'll never see his name lit up again. How sad was that moment and thought for me. We talked primarily via IM many days, and many hours.
ReplyDeleteHe is so special and means so many things to so many people. I think it's rare to find people like this nowadays. A day, a week, a month won't go by without the thought of him crossing my mind. I miss my friend. Tremendously. He is a special person to us all. Please know that you are not alone grieving and missing this special man we all knew and loved.
dear ms black samantha jones...sorry for my late response to your comment.....i have been otherwise engaged and this has been the first time i have been on my blod page for some months now...i am still in shock and it still hits me every so often that he has actually passed on.....and my heart sinks....there are alot of us who have been affected by his passing and we are not alone but come together on this shared loss.....blessings xxxx keep your chin up
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