my lessons of 2009....

wow, i cannot believe that it has been a year already....time is flying right past us....

i remember, when i was young i wanted time to move fast so i could be a grown up, now that I am a grown up, i want time to slow down, as i realise i still have yet to realise my dream, my destiny and my place and purpose in this world.....

this year has been a multitude of heartache, pain and grief but it is ending on a high note, making everything else seem like childs play.

on reflection, 2009 has been a year of character building, resistance training and strengthening of mental and emotional stamina. This year was not easy at all in the beginning but as the fourth trimester descended upon me, the direction of my life changed drastically and demanded that i gathered the lessons from the first three trimesters and bring them all together to find the strength and courage needed for me to meet the challenges i faced. and everything that i had been through, had really sharpened me up to become one very instrumental tool.....and i am no longer part of someone elses orchestrated plan, but now the conductor of my own band...

i realised that this year, even though it has also been quite a tiring and demanding one, the actual ending is really awesome and i could not have asked for anything better.....

so in essence, what i am trying to say, is when we think, we got it bad, when we think it cannot get any harder, just stop and think for a minute, this is only god's way of preparing you for something great.....so keep positive, keep the faith and know this, god does not give you more than you can handle, and believe me when i say, i am a walking testimony to this fact, and whatever gets thrown at you or in your direction, learn to deal with positively, and be patient, be loving, be kind, learn to handle things differently if you want the outcome to be different and know that when you do things with a clean heart and with good intentions, only will you see a positive response.....

this will be my last blog for 2009, as today, my daughter, my son and i will be setting off to celebrate this year and bring in the new year with our friends and family, so till then friends, take care, enjoy the forthcoming festivies, and remember, if you cannot be with the one you love, love those that you are with and god loves you.....

happy 2010 folks.....xxx